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March 3rd, 2009


04:55 pm - The End.
I'm never here really.

But I do still actively blog.

www.myspace.com/starpunctures


I'm pretty sure this is a dead place anyhow.

This part of my life has been closed 100% about a month ago.
My Medic returned.

And now a chapter has started.


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December 24th, 2008


10:46 pm - And sometimes...
I come back here.

I don't know why.
This place reminds me of him.


And he's so long gone.

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August 26th, 2008


10:15 am
Sleep is over rated when it's full of everyone you are trying to avoid.

I would rather the waves of lunacy take me, then to know deep down inside, I still carry that voice.

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August 23rd, 2008


09:38 pm - shot in the dark, although this place is vaccant
Airport raging.

I was reformed.

And there was this lingering smell of the city of roses.
A shadow of the best thing.


Years can harbor damages in our foundation.
Some of us are not so aware of subtle details.
And when the storm rolls in, we wonder how the water gets in.

To drench our insides.

That will destroy our garden gates.
Where once it waited.

Airport buzz.

Once I was reformed.
Current Location: desert dust circa 2003
Current Mood: listlesslistless
Current Music: Mogwai
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July 31st, 2008


12:03 am
It's been forever, but this has always been a place I've ran to.
For ghosts.


Today I came across a song.
And this moment, it came across me.
"I hope you get this message, oh, you're not home.
I could be there in ten minutes or so."


"Oh with you, I could never be alone...never be alone."

You would think,
you would think,
you would think.


Right?




But I guess even these things will surface from time to time.

Oh medic.

I'm all grown up.
A mother, a lover,
and yet, still the song, it made me sixteen again.


I realize that some things time can never take.




I know you don't come here ever.

It's a dead place full of wreckage, and drift wood.
A home for ghosts.


That's you.



The red x ghost that frequents the dreaming.



I wonder, and I wander.




Somewhere in these turning seas, there is your void.
Current Music: Untitled * Pearl Jam

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May 5th, 2008


01:49 am - Insomnia.
I can't sleep.
I can never sleep.


I'm not often here, mostly on myspace.



And Justin Baade has been on my brain recently.
I hate when this happens.
One day maybe that will pass entirely.

Until then I will always wonder how he is, and if he ever thinks the same.

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March 17th, 2008


09:08 pm - You can find me left of center...
Long day.

I got some more sleeve work done on my sandman sleeve. I'm too lazy to take photos now. But as soon as I do, I'll be sure to post them.



In the mean time there is this...

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March 15th, 2008


09:17 pm
 Recently I reconciled with an ex.



Some one who was very much apart of my life for the last 6 months or so.

I am still going back and forth in my head if this is a healthy thing or not. 

I mean I know it's a healthy thing, but if it will stay healthy I guess.



Dave Briggs @ 71 Tattoo tattooed my ribs yesterday. 

He's so good. He's done a ton of stuff on me.



This tattoo has a deeper meaning though.

Riddle me that Batman.









In other news....



I am super board tonight, but don't want to go out.

Ain't that a bitch?

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March 11th, 2008


12:00 am - "Love Replaces Fear"
 I am not the shiny star, or gloomy air, or even the angry sea.



I don't question who you love, but I may question if you really love.





This said, people should listen to their own hearts, and stop trying to second guess the choices made by the hearts of others...









This is was my myspace Public Service Announcement today.



I made a playlist for my current mood of late....



*START OF EVERGREEN MIX TAPE*

Oscillate Wildly *The Smiths



This Could Be Love *Alkaline Trio

"Thinking of you wide awake for days"



No Ordinary Love *Deftones (covering Sadie)

"Did somebody say that a love like that won't last"



I'm On Fire *Bats For Lashes (covering the boss)

"At night I wake up with the sheets soaking wet, and a freight train running through the middle of my head"



C'Mere *Interpol

"Your sacred parts, your getaways"



again and again and again *Blaqk Audio

"For every time we return to our scene

It seems less like a crime."



Everybody Knows *Concrete Blonde

"Everybody knows you love me baby. Everybody knows that you really do.

Everybody knows that you've been faithful, give or take a night or two"



Ask For Answers *Placebo

"These bonds are shackle free, wrapped in lust and lunacy.

Tiny touch of jealousy, these bonds are shackle free."



There is a Light That Never Goes Out *The Smiths

"to die by your side..."



Heros *David Bowie

"And you

You can be mean

And I

I'll drink all the time"



Shake this Disease *Depeche Mode

"can't you see it's misery and torture for me"



Fall *Editors

"These dark pubs we drink in

Somehow light up when I'm with you"



Another Night *Heavens

"So save for me, the pleasantries 

How pathetic this must sound

To patiently still be craving"



Fear Is On Our Side *I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness

"your sighs"



Lover, You Should Come Over *Jeff Buckley

"Looking out the door i see the rain fall upon the funeral mourners

Parading in a wake of sad relations as their shoes fill up with water 

And maybe i'm too young to keep good love from going wrong 

But tonight you're on my mind so you never know "



Stardust *Luscious Jackson

"f i lock you up

will the edges fade

will you understand

how simple i am"



Stretch Out And Wait *The Smiths

"What I do know is we're Here and it's Now"



Be Quiet And Drive (far away) acoustic *Deftones

"It feels good to know youre all mine

Now drive me far away"



Nose Over Tail *Alkaline Trio

"you're saving me"



Jimmy *MIA

"Got static on ya satellite phone

Got to get you safe at home"



The Way That I Found You *Ladytron

"drunk after work, here in the late night feelings"



Lay Lady Lay *Ministry (covering Bob Dylan)

"when shes standing in front of you"



Black Wave/Bad Vibrations *The Arcade Fire

"there's a great black wave in the middle of the sea for me, for you"



Blue Carolina *Alkaline Trio

"It really counts this time"



Henry Lee *Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds

"For the girl you have in that merry green land

Can wait forever for you to come home"



If Only Tonight We Could Sleep *The Cure

"And the rain would cry

As our faces slipped away"



Leif Erickson *Interpol

"I'll bring you when my lifeboat sails through the night

That is supposing that you don't sleep tonight"



Starlight *Muse

"Let's conspire to re-ignite"



The Ship Song *Concrete Blonde (covering Nick Cave)

"we make a little history, every time you come around"



Endlessly She Said *A Fire Inside

"I will wait"



Blue In the Face *Alkaline Trio

"Your coffin or mine"



Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want *The Smiths

"for once in my life let me get what I want"



Lovesong *The Cure

"whenever I'm alone with you"



Without You I'm Nothing *Placebo

"you've never seen the lonely me at all"



*END OF EVERGREEN MIX TAPE*



Also I've had a hard time putting down the newest Editors album. God I love them...




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12:00 am
 I am not the shiny star, or gloomy air, or even the angry sea.



I don't question who you love, but I may question if you really love.





This said, people should listen to their own hearts, and stop trying to second guess the choices made by the hearts of others...









This is was my myspace Public Service Announcement today.



I made a playlist for my current mood of late....



*START OF EVERGREEN MIX TAPE*

Oscillate Wildly *The Smiths



This Could Be Love *Alkaline Trio

"Thinking of you wide awake for days"



No Ordinary Love *Deftones (covering Sadie)

"Did somebody say that a love like that won't last"



I'm On Fire *Bats For Lashes (covering the boss)

"At night I wake up with the sheets soaking wet, and a freight train running through the middle of my head"



C'Mere *Interpol

"Your sacred parts, your getaways"



again and again and again *Blaqk Audio

"For every time we return to our scene

It seems less like a crime."



Everybody Knows *Concrete Blonde

"Everybody knows you love me baby. Everybody knows that you really do.

Everybody knows that you've been faithful, give or take a night or two"



Ask For Answers *Placebo

"These bonds are shackle free, wrapped in lust and lunacy.

Tiny touch of jealousy, these bonds are shackle free."



There is a Light That Never Goes Out *The Smiths

"to die by your side..."



Heros *David Bowie

"And you

You can be mean

And I

I'll drink all the time"



Shake this Disease *Depeche Mode

"can't you see it's misery and torture for me"



Fall *Editors

"These dark pubs we drink in

Somehow light up when I'm with you"



Another Night *Heavens

"So save for me, the pleasantries 

How pathetic this must sound

To patiently still be craving"



Fear Is On Our Side *I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness

"your sighs"



Lover, You Should Come Over *Jeff Buckley

"Looking out the door i see the rain fall upon the funeral mourners

Parading in a wake of sad relations as their shoes fill up with water 

And maybe i'm too young to keep good love from going wrong 

But tonight you're on my mind so you never know "



Stardust *Luscious Jackson

"f i lock you up

will the edges fade

will you understand

how simple i am"



Stretch Out And Wait *The Smiths

"What I do know is we're Here and it's Now"



Be Quiet And Drive (far away) acoustic *Deftones

"It feels good to know youre all mine

Now drive me far away"



Nose Over Tail *Alkaline Trio

"you're saving me"



Jimmy *MIA

"Got static on ya satellite phone

Got to get you safe at home"



The Way That I Found You *Ladytron

"drunk after work, here in the late night feelings"



Lay Lady Lay *Ministry (covering Bob Dylan)

"when shes standing in front of you"



Black Wave/Bad Vibrations *The Arcade Fire

"there's a great black wave in the middle of the sea for me, for you"



Blue Carolina *Alkaline Trio

"It really counts this time"



Henry Lee *Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds

"For the girl you have in that merry green land

Can wait forever for you to come home"



If Only Tonight We Could Sleep *The Cure

"And the rain would cry

As our faces slipped away"



Leif Erickson *Interpol

"I'll bring you when my lifeboat sails through the night

That is supposing that you don't sleep tonight"



Starlight *Muse

"Let's conspire to re-ignite"



The Ship Song *Concrete Blonde (covering Nick Cave)

"we make a little history, every time you come around"



Endlessly She Said *A Fire Inside

"I will wait"



Blue In the Face *Alkaline Trio

"Your coffin or mine"



Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want *The Smiths

"for once in my life let me get what I want"



Lovesong *The Cure

"whenever I'm alone with you"



Without You I'm Nothing *Placebo

"you've never seen the lonely me at all"



*END OF EVERGREEN MIX TAPE*



Also I've had a hard time putting down the newest Editors album. God I love them...




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